Sirius A & B, a double-star system that makes me think of power

I’ve been thinking about this for some time. The giving away of personal power and how it has manifested itself in my life. I read a post today on another blog that really made me think on this, the writer basically said being around certain people was psychologically destructive to her. Believe me, I understand that; it’s a big reason I limit my interaction with many of my family members, a big reason, why I ditched certain friends, and a big reason I choose not to talk to certain people. But I also understand that in a very real way, in doing these things, I am giving other people power over me and this severely limits the possibility of any change or growth in either party.

From experiences I’ve had, I know that sometimes just starting a discussion can open up avenues of thought just for myself that helps me whether I change the mind of anyone else. It goes a long way toward building my own emotional strength, so I am not so easily psychologically destroyed by people with a fundamentally different world view. That is an essential giving away of power that undermines the ability to grow as a person, I feel.

Staying stagnant is probably my biggest fear. I’m light years away from being a tight-fisted ball of misery, filled with pain and angst. In part because I chose to reclaim my personal power, bit by bit. When will I decide to claim it all?